LETS MAKE BEAUTY

Where have I been, Who have I been?

Today I woke up with illness still resting beside me.
I’m craving a new space already, and it’s only been a month since being in this one.
I’m not really sure why this is happening so frequently within me at the moment, and there is clearly a lot of searching I need to be doing to try and solve this mystery why.
My soul seems to be being pulled in all sorts of directions, but their locations and their longings I don’t understand, nor know where to begin understanding.
Yet I’m still seeking it at the same time.

I know this feeling generally falls in to it’s old world habits, of just craving desires just to push myself to feeling them at their at most extremes, and it’s beginning to make me wonder if I will continue to function this way for the rest of my life.
I don’t know if that is something that is going to work to my advantage, or send me further into this world of great overwhelm.

It’s all seeming like nothing but nonsense for now, as I hide under a blue blanket hoping to drown it out with Cass McCombs whispering in my ears.

I don’t know who I am, who I have been, or where.
I desperately want to know though.